June already

Birthdays.

Will I get what I want?

no likely. I didn't ask for it.

wow it has been awhile.

year is already half gone. I'm still holding tight to that thorn.

Maybe now is a good time.

It's a new day.

Today is a gift.

New Week

new day, well end of one anyway. 

New week.

New adventures.

Crazy. - helps to keep me sane ;)

Tired - time for bed and sleeping, in that order.

hey having the whole thing to myself was nice and not nice,

I didn't sleep on my side oddly enough.

I took up the entire bed instead

:D

Monday

It's been a Monday for certain today.

Long, very long day.

I feel like I've been trying to catch my own tail all day long.

That double whammy Friday didn't help things either.

I was in now way expecting or prepared for that. 

Which meant for the first time in a very long while, I had to spend a day in bed with my feet up; popping actical like candy. And I missed days of swimming.

Today seems a bit better. At least I could get up and walk around.  

The whole ground and center sure becomes much more of a challenge when I feel miserable.

I am just absolutely wiped tonight.

I took a time out tonight, sitting in my fav. indoor place and read.

But it's one of those early to bed nights.

Funny how I got past the being afraid part, and now I'm just to tired.

Yet willing to try vulnerability. Ironic.

Life is all about the timing, isn't it.

Speaking of which, becoming busy is feeling intimidating.

Yet the timing fits. Sad, but true. No not even sad, just true.

April.

It is going to be quite the year.

It's has been already. And month two just started.

More of me? I want to know all of me.

I may get the chance to staff K&A in few weeks.

They invited me to. I would so love to do that. 

Return.

Smile

It's a beautiful day in the neighbourhood!

Won't you be my neighbour??

"Debacle of gigantic proportions" LMAO.

Worse loss in franchise history. 
Oh and I am raising me some hockey fans! Little J has decided that Oilers aren't her favorite anymore (small win), but that she like ALL hockey teams and players. OK I can accept that.

It is a good day. Good to be alive.
VERY good.  Listening brings things together. Living with intent and designing your life stuff, ROCKS!!

That reminds me, I need to send Kimberly a wins letter. Another Harry test.
That and ask for the letters of introduction for those key people.
Wouldn't that be something??

To another snowy day, and smiles.

Sweet Mother of Pearl !

I GOT IT!!!

From liver of a terminal cancer patient to clean bill of health in one year!!!

Saw Dr. Grant today.

It was sooooo cool to see the otherside of what health looks like.

It ROCKS!!!!

No oxidative stress. No major liver toxicisity. 

Very Minor maintenance things to attend to.

Increase minerals a bit. Up enzymes for one meal for a month.

He could even see the energy levels had increased. 

You could see cells talking to each other, moving around, functioning normally!!!

ME. My Cells - being normal, funct

ioning within normal peramaters.

He even said he was amazed and so proud of me. 

Very very cool morning.

Worth missing swimming for infact.

Worth celebrating over, that's for certain.

Wonder how i can do that??

Kenna does it Best!!

To the New

Courage take for goodness sake.

Get out of your own way and give up your resistance

Then allow next to happen.

Let in the love.

Allow the joy.

Be Gena.

Well Well Well

Oh My lanta!

My hair is growing! And not just growing - finally, but growing BACK

It's coming back!!

Again. Thank Heaven.

Losing it has been really hard, especially for what the third time now. Really feeling hopeless there for a bit.

Now I can scarcely believe it.

I have all these little one inch hairs all over. New hair. And even Court. noticed it had gotten much longer in month since she last cut it.

I am going to get to grow my hair out, and have it look more than just decent.

Curly and long and full head of hair. 

Now there's a Cosmic order being filled.

I've had one of the BEST weekends in a very long time.

I went out dancing Saturday night. It was amazing. I was wired for hours afterwards.

It felt good. Really good. 

Been a long time since I connected with then.

Alan was in town for awards night, I figured I earned one of those and I used to love being around them all, why not.

So I went. Alone. For whole afternoon and party that night.

It rocked. I would never had been up there getting my picture taken if she hadn't tattled on me to Ray. But it was nice just the same. I worked hard for that it should be recognized.

I got the chance to thank Alan in person for athlete work he's done and told him I used the professional information for competing as an amateur. And winning a silver in nationals.

They are working on a database of professional and amateur athletes to have as a resource; based on sport. That is so cool.

Decided today to take Ray up on his invitation for breakfast. Never been to a casino, but figured it's an opportunity that doesn't come up often. Sitting at a table with all of them, and I belonged.

It was cool. Very cool.

Getting a big warm hug from Janet last night was also very needed.

So many of them have had me on their minds now. Hey look I'm not forgotten either.

Michelle was great. Nadia amazing. Carla. Everyone. Sandy and Joe. Wow. I met the hottest guy, must be what 20 maybe. Nicest green eyes. And his enthusiasm, wow. WE talked for must have been close to 20 minutes. Even got a hug on my way out. He's on fire, going to light up the world with that. Newbie, about 3 months. Love that.

Tonight, I finally looked at my KA CD. All the pictures. I have tried before and just couldn't get the drive to work. Today, no issues.

It was something to reconnect to that amazing week. I DID those things, and I have evidence to prove it. Not that anyone will ever see it. 

Seeing those pictures, I was alot heavier. Swimming rocks. Getting tighter and smaller and stronger and more myself all the time.

I miss my team. I would literally do anything for anyone of them. That means ME as well.

Getting out of my own way. I believe. 

Feeling like this, two days in a row - apparently having a killer night leads to a killer day also - I love this. 

What I have right now is so amazing. So incredible. I am truly blessed and incredibly grateful.

Wow.

My mom and I talked tonight. SHE is on rampage again. So we talked about choices. How I've learned I get to choose how I want to experiance things in my life.

Can't change them, just how I experaince what they bring. It was a good conversation. Me coaching my mom. The most amazing woman I've ever know.

How's that for irony. Her looking to me.

Life is full of surprises, and opportunities.

Most don't ever look at them, cause they're wearing coveralls and look like work.

Time take an opprotunity.

Fly Butterfly.