I want what comes from ground and centered, yet it's not easy to stay there.
Deep breath and find it again.
What was that about 99% course corrections.
Listening to that song play, wishing I could play that; have that outlet. And at the same time so glad she can.
Now our talks appear to be done. And they should be, right?
I did get to swimming again today. That's twice. It wasn't long and it wasn't early morning, but it was a start.
Today seemed to be alot harder though. Harder to move, less endurance, harder to breathe. And felt it way more. My butt and hips hurt.
And my arms. But i'll take it, if this helps me melt off all that excess, i'll do anything.
I am reclaiming myself. I will do what it necessary to do that.
Even early morning swimming.
I thougth about going back tonight, but just to much to do.
I could even go to GARC for workout, or Kinsmen too.
Options.
And I intend to use them.
It's also nice to have a friend to come along with me. I need more friends.
That whole target thing.
There is a shift in the wind, a changing of something.
Like holding your breath before opening a door. Inhale, and let it out.
It's end of the old and beginning of the new.
This has not been the happiest of years, but worth it all? Absolutely.
And for the discovery I made I'd repeat it all in a heartbeat.
If it comes to you, it is meant to come through you.
I need to decide. I really want to start a business.
I really don't know where to begin.
And yet I have to make a choice on how I am going to get things handled.
Is it going back into retail? TKD is winding down. What are my options.
I am against the wall and it's time to go over.
Over and up.
Onward.
To the new.
No comments:
Post a Comment