I'm sitting here listening to music as loud as I can letting unknown tears run down my face.
Killers. Foo Fighters. Muse. Seethers.
All as loud as I can over and over; crying.
Can't yet tell if its cleansing cry or what.
I did get word on MTB. Looks like plea has been reached.
Leaves there in less than a month.
About 10-12 years in max.
Good I suppose.
Tomorrow is the last day of the year. Melancholy kind of feeling.
I am not where I wanted to be in this moment. Not at all.
And yet I stay in all this resistance so I can keep getting what I want from it.
More evidence to support the story I made up about harsh and complexity.
Strength and stability. Why never both. How come it is I choose one or the other.
Again more evidence to support my story.
It is so time for a new story.
Why Killers are bringing on tears is a mystery to me.
Whatever triggers I guess. When need it you need it.
Did get swimming in again today. That makes day three.
I am so glad to have someone to do this with. I'm taking me back.
Thinking about GARC at nighttime. In the summer it'd be nice to run there and back.
Course that means getting an ipod and music then too...
We shall see.
After that I was going to do resume, but didn't
Did get my eyebrows done again though.
New Year's is at mom's without mom.
Sisters and kids hanging out. As long as they're happy and I get to see the game it's all good.
I think maybe it might be time for bed now.
That was an early morning and I am really tired.
Feel like bug is creeping bag in for another attack too.
Hey at rebounder moment might help with that.
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