Well nearly there

Breakdown.

If I am going to that breakthrough I intend to have, first going to need to allow the breakdown.

Today I am pretty damned close.

All full of tears and everything.

If I can..

No.

When I push passed this and through this....

I've got everything else pretty much covered. All the big things I already know.

Just this one left, it isn't even a big thing. And yet that is exactly what I am making it into.

It is never about the money.

I hate flannel. I hate Flannel sheets. They're hot,and itchy and irritating.

Yet what's on my bed? Flannel sheets.

Means I have to sleep in PJ's just so I won't have to feel that on my skin.

Sigh.

Not much of being myself there now is there.

Marcel sent me another email.

Dammit! I wanted to be in Costa Rica this year.

I don't care about all the other stuff in the way. I wanted to do that.

I worked hard, but not hard enough for long enough.

And not enough to make up for anyone else either.

Sigh.

It's Tuesday.

I think I need a hug.