Every day with the ups and downs.
I had forgot about the call today, and just happened to make it back home for that time.
I was so excited that my commitment to my being committed showed up, uncounsiously even.
That was fantastic! I just moved right into that.
I even had time to complete what I wanted to have for my say on the call.
And then it turns into this all threatening big secret. Cost??
Every moment a choice, every choice has prices and benefits. It wasn't a fight.
It is something I have value in that I need. I reallly need this. Trying to hold everything all together. I can't do that for everyone, or anyone, just me.
So leave me to do that. Stop attacking when I actually make the progress I want.
Breathe.
Matter of sending in the correct order and sending back the one I didn't actually want or order.
I need Denise.
Well I need lots of things.
Most are just going to have to wait for a bit.
Atleast last night went well.
Better than well.
I cannot believe I was willing seen in a bathing suit. And I wore that insanely hot and ridicilous costume. But it was fun. Shhhh. That's a secret though.
I did learn that swimming really helps with the burning feeling. Like putting out the fire in my chest. That was very nice to know. I may have to find means and time and way to do more swimming.
I could get used to the no fire in that breast, without drugs. Wouldn't that be something.
Now today is a sickie day. I hate those.
I still have to show up and do everything anyway, so what's the point.
But here I am none the less.
Often harsh, always fair.
Never easy, Always worth it.
Present and accounted for
Being Gena.
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